Current mood:

depressed

I cant do this, I feel so alone. My life is nothing but driving and sitting at home while the boy sleeps. I ask him if he looked for a job, he says have you? I do nothing but work. I'm having enough problems as it is, i cant deal with loosing my home and fucking my credit too. I'm so far in debt. I feel like I have no one to talk to. I dont want to bother my friends, they either have their own problems or i dont want to burden them with mine. I just needed to get shit off my chest, and actually i hope everyone ignores this. Even here i cant let myself type all im feeling. I always tell everyone it will get better, but right now i feel like im in a cycle that just keeps sprialing down. Sunday is my mom and scotts birthday and fathersday. cant get them anything. then comes bre's 16th birthday, cant get her anything. cant even buy food for myself. I'm breaking down, im trying not to. Its not working.